Thursday, September 15, 2005
Physics Midterm Test (10%) and i flunk it!! How sad =(... Haizz... I felt so sad yesterday, and even today.. But who can i tell? I could tell no one, no one will know that... becoz I was trying to stay happy as I would usually.. Trying very hard to cover all my sadness with my happy smile and crappy jokes, which sometimes I found were those stupid ones. I just knew I am not right after the physics test.. It's apparently my fault for getting this kind of results. I deserved this kind of result i guess. God jus want me to experience that. Just feeling very 对不起 (dui bu qi) to Jack and Nelson, and of coz myself. Jack helped me with physics and nearly caused him lab assignment 4 cant be finished in time. Nelson even stayed up in school with me till quite late (ard 10pm), teaching and revising the 5 chapters of physics for my test. Its very nice of him and somehow i am the "cause" of his sore throat to be back againz and also wasting his precious time in school to just teaching me this slow learner i guess.... Just want to say "Guys, Thanks for everyting and I am SORRY!!!"
Yesterday, i am feeling so sad.. I wanted to let it out, cry out but i just cant. I told myself i mustn't cry but till i called Jack, i found myself in tears toking halfway to him.......I just dont want people to see my weak side, i keep on telling myself "Don't Cry... Never cry infront of other people.. I need to be strong..." But apparently i am still not strong enough, becoz in the end i still cried. Cried Sliently... Haiz.. Today, I am still feeling quite sad over my physics. When you see mi joking ard and crapping like hell, you probably shld know that there is someting wrong with me...
For Now... I just have to work harder in order to survive this ordeal.. Survive all the way thru the L.I.F.E of NUS. I have to, and I need to, and I wont give up!
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