Saturday, July 29, 2006
It's 3am in the morning yet I am still not sleepy. Maybe I am as I could feel my brain is getting heavier as each sec passed, yet eyes just do not wish to close as I am just afraid that once my eyes are close, thoughts will just gush into the brain. Again, This is the another trouble-sleeping night I have for this week. My eye bags are getting from bad to worse and they can only be hidden under layers of make-up. For no reasons, I will just wake up in the middle of the night in my bedroom, letting the darkness embracing me, with a mind full of thoughts. I have been repeatingly doing this for the past few nights. I just wish to have a peaceful night, without troubled mind, deep thoughts and all so that I can have a real and good sleep. A sleep without thoughts, dreams and anything but just a simple sleep to rest my mind.
Knowing tat my brain just needs to do some rearrangement of my thoughts, but please not when the time I would like to rest. Get lost plssss.... I know I have chunked lots of unwanted stuff in there, making them so messy in there, all trying to fight among themselves for tiny space. Not that I wish to clear them so easily. They are there for a reason of course, you can control their appearence if you are skilled enough. And that's the reason I am not, thus I am here blogging whatever shit I feel now. I cant control my messy thoughts right now. Does blogging really helps? It don't I think... but at least, for the minimal, I can express what I am feeling.
I am not feeling very good now. Still not good, just hate to say this. Could a sleep make me better? I don't know but I do hope so. But the problem is I cant sleep as I want when with a mind full of thoughts. I am trying my best to clear and freeze my thoughts now.....
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